With less than a month to go in this, what feels like two year process, I must say I am more than ready. From the excruciating pain in my lower back, the random sharp pains I get shooting down my legs, and the jabs to my ribcage from Mr. Long-legs in there, this has been one big rollercoaster ride. Everyone keeps telling me, just wait until he’s born, it’s a whole other ball field. Thanks people, I get it! Sympathize with me for a moment, you don’t have a six pound baby growing inside of you! Anyways, nothing worth having comes easy, right?
Tomorrow I go in for my last “major” appointment. They are going to check on the baby’s weight, growth, and on my cervix to make sure I’m not dilating. A is driving in from Houston to take me, and we have plans for lunch after. I told him I wanted us to get together in a setting where it is more comfortable for us to talk, and discuss the plans for when the baby arrives. I’m planning on asking him to be in the room for the delivery, I think it is such an incredible moment in time that he can never get back. Hoping he’ll say yes. Lately I’ve began to see the old A, the way he used to be, sweet, caring, understanding, I’ve been waiting for so long for him to come back, and worried that it would never happen. All I can do is keep praying, and thanking God every time he answers another one of my prayers.
My belly has gotten so big in this last month, even though its been painful and exhausting, I still love every minute of it. His kicks are so powerful now, and I can literally sit for an hour in silence, and just stare at my stomach as my skin jumps up from an arm or a leg, sometimes I can even see his little butt poking up. I cant even remember how it feels to not be pregnant, its been so long since I’ve felt “light”. I will tell you this, I am ready to be able to see my feet, and to be able to actually put my shoes on without making a loud noise. Pregnancy is a beautiful thing, I am so lucky to have had a somewhat easy ride. The beginning was a little rough, being in New York and all, and then the few scares I had around the fifth month, and well the heartburn is still miserable, but seriously, I hear people that go through their entire pregnancy with morning sickness, if that was me, there would be no blogging, I would be a very very angry woman.
Last week I stayed at the ranch, where the baby and I will be moving once he arrives. The Puryear clan all helped me get his room together, cleaning and organizing, setting up the crib, bouncers, etc. I am now in full nesting mode. That is all I can think about these days, I want everything to be perfect. My aunt is an interior designer in Houston, and she has a sense for style, choosing colors, and picking the right fabrics, and she offered to do the baby’s bedding. I can’t wait to see everything completed! We’re looking at four more weeks of this, seriously, it still seems so far away, hoping it will be smooth sailing from here on out…
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